My story, how it began...

Now, I am withdrawing myself from my usual group. It's not sudden actually, but somehow they think it is.

First of all, this is my side of the story.

It all began when J1 told me that he and L thought that I am a snob, during our first English class. At that time, I was surprised that the English class is not as hard as I anticipated. I was expecting a harder one, similar to IELTS. J1 told me months later just because he was afraid that L would tell me that, thus 'washing' his hands clean.

Personally, I think that it makes things worse. I have trust issue. Had he really been honest, he should have told me earlier, not telling it for the sake of cleaning his hands. So, I began to isolate myself from the group gradually.

Then come the annual dinner. I was trying to forget the incident, trying to let it go. Then, J1 was whispering to J2. When I asked them what are they talking about,, they replied "It's nothing". It makes me feel bad/sad. Again, knowing that they did talk behind my back, I started to overthink. Again I withdrew myself.

I exited the chat group.

The story is not finished yet.

Here comes J3. A girl. I always cover her work, but again, I am invisible. If there's something fun/hip/interesting to share, she'll only share it to J2. She would look for me only if she needs help on assignment.

The last straw was when she asked for help with an assignment, before Valentine's. I had plans on that day, mostly to relax myself at the saloon. She asked for help at the last minute, so I had to cancel my plans. Yes, at that time she did not specifically ask for my help, but again the other members of the group did not respond promptly. Knowing that we would share our marks for group assignment, I have to help that girl.

Worst, after the presentation of the assignment, I was left behind while they are enjoying their lunch.

Since then, I did all my assignment solo.

Well, do you think that's the end of the story. Nope.

Apparently, people would still talk behind my back even when I am minding my own business. One did say that nobody is asking for my help, and even said that I am too arrogant/proud to do things in a group (their group).

Now, I don't want to be the floor mat. I don't want to be invisible. I don't want to be used. Is it my fault to leave the group? No!

To be fair, it is also J2's advice to try to be alone. I took his advice, and still they are not happy with my decision?

All this while, I did my best to help the group. And this is what I get?

J1, always ask for my favour. I help him deal with his car spare parts, even help cleaning his mess with his crush V. I gave him spotlights but when I asked him if he is free for a 'bro-time', he told me that he would be playing badminton with Dayu and Beth. Bro-time is purely boys. I help you, clean your ass and I got cold shoulder when I want to hang out with you?

I'm fed up with this attitude.

Well, I am doing fine alone.

It's better for us to part ways, rather than having ungrateful people use you.