PTSD turned me into a monster???

Hmmmm... If I were given the chance to turn back time, I would return to my pre-PTSD years. 

Yes, PTSD changed me. But not all are bad.

For instance, having PTSD taught me to empathize. Considerate.

Now, I live in time, not in future. Cherishing life, because life would not always be the same. We get older, matured, and wiser? I hope. 

So monster? Yes, if I am on the road driving alone. I would turn into a monster. Well, just cursing and giving off my middle fingers. Just to that extent. But very frequent. Yes, reckless driving ruined my life. Not, me. The evidence was circumstantial. Just because I exited the junction, I'm wrong, while the other party was hogging the lane. Using children to make me guilty. And I start to have flashback on the incident which put me into this mess. I just wish I had installed videocam as an evidence.  

C'est la vie...