I would... avoid talking to a former crush at all cost, except when that former crush turned to be your bestie.
To be honest, it's awkward to have a conversation with them. If she's already my best friend, we have other thing to talk about. And I'm already over her. So it can be handled.
The way people express their love is sometimes silly. There was a beautiful girl in the next class when I was 11 years old. She's beautiful but she had a congenital leg deformity. If I recall it correctly, talipes equinus. So she limps. I kinda like her, so I mimic her gait. I'm not making fun of her. Emphatic maybe, I just want to be her friend.
A puppy love is cute. It's not really erotic. It's usually, a fraternal love. Remember when it's "She's so cute, I wish she's my sister" kind of love. It's purely love. No erotic thought involved.
A few days ago, my crush, Ms K initiate a conversation. I just nodded. Not wanting to utter a word. It's quite awkward. She about to be engaged. It's awkward, and to be honest, I'm afraid of her boyfriend. A bit. Her boyfriend's brother used to bully me.
One of my first crush is Ange. She a beautiful girl. Still is. There were a handful of almost puberty guys had a crush on her. She got married already. We were Facebook friend. So one day (before she got married) She asked how am I. I was shocked, but somewhat elated, but still awkward. Hoping that she don't remember about the crush I had.
Replying that I am fine. Doing okay in the 'hell on earth'. Hoping that it's just that. Just a courtesy talk. Then she posted on my facebook "Remember when we were 12?"
Uh oh... crossing my fingers that she don't remember. I try a diversion. "Oh, yeah! How can I don't remember. I planted shallots in my plot, adjacent to Zuan's plot, who also planted garlic"
Hoping the diversion works. Then the most, embarrassing reply "No, silly! I'm referring to the crush you had on me"
Bragging or just reminiscing a 'sweet' memory. I'm not sure. Is she being an asshole trying to tell me that, she's hot?
No, she's not a bitchy girl. Just a sweet girl. So she's probably just reminiscing a sweet chapter in my life. If only, she's my girlfriend. If only. But one better not question, just ponder. Matching is in God's hands, as the old adage goes. Thus, a match made in heaven.
That year was one of the best. I have the best best friend, I got good grades. Can love drives us to be better. I'd think so. Maybe if I have somebody to love during my university years, I would complete the stupid and agonizing 5 year course. A good support system.
C'est la vie.
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